Today started out right, quite.
Woke up late, like at 0825, so had to chiong out of house.
Thanks Joey for waiting for me, <3
Really wasn’t in the mood for Ept today.
So just soldered the components and pass it up.
Mac after that.
Study, rightttttttt.
Spent 2/3 of my time doodling on my notebook.
Coz I was in the I-can-draw-nicely-today mood.
Somemore Johanna and Joey are pen-siao. So many colourful pens!
Here comes the worst part : I found out.
It was so sudden, I was taken aback.
How is it possible? Why is it her? Why not others?
Then, I started to think………..
If I had treat her better, if I had do all the work, will this happen?
I walked down the stairs, with my heavy footsteps.
Open the door with my keys, unwillingly.
I didn’t want to face this, reality.
Hope Time Machine really existed.
She didn’t speak a word at first.
She looked strong, but I know, deep down she’s as scared as I am.
Tears won’t help, I must not cry.
私は強いです, 私は強いです, 私は強いです.
But for just one day. I hope the world’s kind to me.
However, I don’t think it’s possible.
Really don’t understand.
I know, sometimes, you meant it as a joke.
But today, I don’t see it as a joke, it hurts.
And not saying a word, doesn’t mean I’m okay with it..
Lastly, if you think this is a emo/attention-seeking post.
Fuck you, and fuck off.
Coz you are not me, and you dont know how I feel.
All I can do now is, pray.
